three weeks ago

Three weeks ago I was getting ready to take all my portfolio projects in for week 5 review. I was really nervous because I kept remembering the last time I tried this…and failed.
Well, I passed that review, barely, because my teacher went to bat for me. The advisor was willing to give almost everyone a fail slip and my teacher pulled him aside and said, "Hold on, just take a look at the work she's done here and compare it to what she had last time. She's improved 1000%."
Now, today, I'm going to "Round 2". This is the week 8 review and it's either pass or fail. I'm super nervous now because I truly don't know what I will do if I can't pass this time. I know you're thinking, well, just try again. This is the case of easier said than done. My problem is that I have ideas all day long, but lack the skills to bring them to life. As much as I've practiced using my programs I've learned, gone to workshops at school, look at tutorials I find on YouTube and design sites, it just doesn't hit me like it does other people. But I keep trying because when I'm working on an idea, I know this is what I should be doing.
In the past when I've tried something and wasn't good at it, I quit, but that was because I never had the feeling of "this is what I should be doing". I knew I didn't have the talent for it and I didn't think I needed to explore it further. Some days when I get a bad review on a project, I think for a split second "maybe I should find something else to do."
At six o'clock tonight, I'll find out.

Here are a few examples of things I'm taking today:

here is an ad I did for week 5 and got bad review on it - they love the tagline "Obscenely Clean", so I changed it …..

Here is the new ad for the laundromat. I hope this one passes.  (I don't have permission to use the photo yet)

here is an example of a book I made to display the logos I made,  they love the book idea, but I changed the layout a bit. I hope this is better.

( I do not have permission to use that photo yet)

here is an example of a page that will be in my portfolio book. I will have more logos on more pages to show all the logos I have designed. But for now, since I'm not graduating, I'm not required to have everything in my portfolio book.