Apparently I design for old hookers, too.

Last week I felt great about my projects in school. My teacher from my copywriting class loved all my sketches.
We had to pick a non profit organization, so I chose GirlStart.org. It specializes in taking young girls and giving them the learning opportunities they need to stay focused on male dominated fields like science, technology, engineering and math. I designed 3 sets of posters, with 3 different ideas on how to introduce this organization and get people interested in it. and so I picked one to work with.
Turns out it was the wrong one because we had a sub this week and being a feminist, she shredded the idea that beauty should be intertwined with being smart. "You don't have to be beautiful to be smart." she said. I KNOW that!! The point of my whole idea was to tell girls that so they would study instead of worrying about boys!
Here was one of my final posters I turned in:

I agreed that the left part of the copy should have been smaller to indicate it was separate from the call to action copy on the right, but I didn't agree with anything else. I was told, in addition to it offending feminist, that it was out dated and the use of fonts and colors and pattern was overused.
I just kept thinking what Carlos Casanova said after being eliminated from Season 8 of Project Runway after Michael Kors told him his design looked like it would be great for old ladies waiting for a bus, and from the week before when told his dress looked like it belonged on a prostitute: "So I guess I design for old hookers."
I know I should take my critique and use it to my advantage and make something better out of this... I KNOW THAT!! But I can't not think that I've been in art/design school for 2 damn years now and I feel like I haven't learned or developed a god damn thing. It's like every class is my first class.
I'm never mad at someone who has worked and worked and worked at what they're doing. I get so fucking mad at people with natural talent because I apparently don't have any.
I read this on LifeHack.org :
2. You don’t play to your own strengths.

Instead of focusing on improving what you don’t do well, start paying attention to what you do better than anyone. People will hire or work with you because you’re the best at something. So keep honing your expertise. In today’s world of global business and service on-demand, people can find an expert on all of the other stuff. They want to know what you’re better than anyone else at doing.

I feel like I keep trying it and trying it and trying it and trying it, don't work. Trying it and trying it and trying it, don't work. When the fuck IS it going to work???

I have come up with another idea for this, but I'm sure it won't be any good either.

Now I don't want to give my presentation for my Wednesday class where we have to develop a new branding for a Texas winery. I'm sure that's gonna suck too. And I also can't wait to get my critique back on my Art History project where we had to create our own modern version of a Dutch still life painting and photograph it. I'm sure I totally missed the mark on that one.

I am just feeling so lost right now, but I can't quit because what the fuck else am I going to do??

oh, and I played skeeball, too

I had "Spring Break" last week. With no money to go to Amarillo to visit friends there, I stayed behind in Dallas....and so did a lot of other people. We all a bunch of broke bitches.
Here's the summary: Went to a bunch of parties, didn't get in any fights, drank a bunch of beers, ate a bunch of junk food, burgers, hot dogs and tacos,  stayed up too late, slept too late, had a few flings, a bunch of laughs and general merriment. I spent about $40-ish the whole week, so that's good.

Here's a few pictures in case you missed them from Instagram or Facebook:

I will continue drawing on this sign we found as soon as I finish my beer

what happened last night?

day-o-fun

found a hot dog! - custard and hot dogs at Wild About Harry's

everyone needs to draw on their knees so it won't wash off

Zandy adds to the sign we found, I drew a penis on one of the letters, obviously not shown here

Isabel and Marshall...heart them hard 

Nick drawing? who knows at this point in the night

getting turnt up with Sergio, my jewel

mellow times, I think Nick is plotting something though

But I still have a 3.8 grade point average....

on a scale of 4.0, yes, that's my grade point average so far.
I got 2 A's and 2 B's this past quarter and still have yet to be emailed or invited to a Deans luncheon or school President engagement.....WTF??
If I can peel my eyes open before 9am on Wednesday, then I'm going to "Donuts with the Dean" function at 10am at school and ask.

For those interested or keeping up with my Package design class, here was my final packages and labeled items for the sewing kits I made. The company is "Nifty Stitch". I had to create the company name, the logo and the packaging and what items to package. I got a B and didn't get my work displayed in the case at school like 4 of my classmates. Oh well, I'm happy for them, they did great work. Here is my mediocre work: